Cabin Fever

Well I've diagnosed the cause of my depression as lack of interaction with the outside world. I in other words, I'm suffering from cabin fever. I am still a little depressed today but not as much as I was yesterday. I was just really melon collie. So in order to nurse my wounds I am listing to Nirvana's In Utero album. I love that album and I have not listend to it in forever and it has really comforted me. I am starting to think also that I have a seasonal mood disorder because about this time last year I became down a little bit for about 3 months. I was guessing from the lack of sunshine or what not. Now I am just flat depressed and it came up out of nowhere with no rhyme or reason. I am a detective and in my mind if you find the root of the problem then that is where you take action to solve it and right now I am trying to establish what is the root of my depression. For now Nirvana is providing me with a sonic nutrient bath to help sooth things for me. So right now I am trying to get parental approval to hang out with one of my friends who might pick me up in a little bit. Moving on to other things, on Sunday I had to talk to my friend Bill about what I had seen in church. He said he thought God was shaping me into a leader and one thing he said was "Good leaders are often good at taking orders." or something to that effect and one thing I know about myself is that if you tell me to do something, for the most part I am all for it. I am very good at taking orders. So I don't know what God has in store for me but I got the feeling that I am instore for a crazy adventure. Well I've gotta get back to school work. Later
Adam 10/19/04 1:57 p.m. - 2:23 p.m.